Victim.
We are products of our environment.
Hurt by others.
Emotionally abandoned.
Those that should protect us don't heed the responsibility. Sadly, they don't even realize it.
We are desperate for affirmation from someone, insecurity grows and we are uncomfortable in normal situations. We blame people for their normal lives. There exists hate, jealousy, fear, and obsession over losing that person, even though their perfect lives make us so mad inside.
We are too embarrassed to admit it.
We don't experience our own successes and give into the feelings of worthlessness. We long for the love that they have, but don't accept it.
We victimize, in subtle ways...DARE we admit it? We twinge inside, we are aware something we are doing is wrong, but the emotional need it too great to purge the ickiness we are carrying out.
We punish others for their positives (jealousy) and their resources they have no control over (family and friends).
We create problems and entangle others emotionally so they feel compelled not to leave us.
Unfairness.
Conflicted over guilt of the circumstances we are creating that muddy the waters, fear grows and then we step up our unhealthy game.
But, inside, we live in dark shame. Dare we attempt to overcome this?
***Congruence is the state achieved by coming together, the state of agreement. Wikipedia. Webster's Dictionary says HARMONY.***
I remember the moment in time where it was time for me to end the inner conflict and fess up to the emptiness inside. I stumbled across these words.
Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
Phillipians 3:12-14
You cannot believe something to be true on the inside and live something else on the outside and expect that you will have peace...
